As I get started working with the Blog, I find that I am pretty eager to write all of the sudden! I am rushing through my homework (as fast as one can rush when reading through the Pentateuch…my eyes are rolling into my head with fatigue at the mere memory!) just so I can put “pen to paper” here!

Digression alert: Most of you know that I am taking classes at Nazarene Bible College for my Ministry Preparation Certificate and am hoping to…to do…something in ministry for the Lord…I am not bold enough to say what I think it is…or at least what I hope it is- I am gaining confidence in that slowly!

However, I LOVE my classes and LOVE the challenge of them (most of the time) but am finding this particular one is starting out to be a little on the dry side. I am hoping as we dig further into the OT I will find my enthusiasm refreshed in the stories of the faithfulness of God!

And…we’re back!

My devotion this morning in the book The 365 Most Important Bible Passages for Mothers asked “what message would you show a generation of young women seeking a model of godly reality if cameras were following you around on a daily basis (emphasis mine)?”

Excuse me-what?? Cameras in my house filming me as an example of a godly reality in the home? I do NOT think so!

Good ole Titus 2:3-5 says ³ Likewise, tell the older women to be reverent in behavior, not to be slanderers or slaves to drink; they are to teach what is good, ⁴ so that they may encourage the young women to love their husbands, to love their children, ⁵ to be self-controlled, chaste, good managers of the household, kind, being submissive to their husbands, so that the word of God may not be discredited.

Apparently, I am the “older woman” now and the behavior I am to reflect is to teach younger women to love their husbands and children, to teach others how to be self-controlled, chaste, etc…. I do not think this would be accomplished by a camera in my home this week-let alone any other!

For a recap of the past two days (excluding that I forgot to pick my kid up last week from track practice…yes, I SAID it! I forgot him- nothing but guilt there!): I snuck ice cream before the kid gets off the bus today when I should have been working out and did not offer him any, my 13 year old told me that having me for a mom is a pain (ouch), my husband saying I yell for the sake of yelling (I prefer the term “discuss adamantly”)…I am on a roll for the Winner’s Circle folks as this is only a snip-it of my reality! Mother of the Year, here I come!

A camera would probably get me to have a clean house, make a homemade dinner NOT out of a can or box, actually pick my kids up from events with a smile, make cookies or ice cream from scratch, rub my husbands back when he enters the house and listen lovingly as he speaks of his day, and let’s not even discuss what I currently wear if I do decide to work out: that would have to go!

That is not reality… Instead:

I am impatient.

I discuss adamantly when frustrated or tired (ok, I yell).

I eat more sweets than vegetables.

I prefer to watch TV than exercise. Period. I prefer to clean the bathroom than exercise.

BUT,

I love the Lord Jesus Christ with all my heart! I wish I could talk more openly about Him with the confidence of the Apostle Paul! My heart yearns to follow Him! I wish I could yell how GOOD He is from a mountain- even when life seems so hard and painful!

I love my husband -who has not cleaned a bathroom since possibly 2014, but who’s keeping tract? But, he tells me he is proud of me out of the blue and talks about having a ministry on the baseball field with a bunch of 12 year olds (as I am complaining at him about how many days a week he is committing to). And, he makes my bed each night so I can have a bed-turned-down service when I crawl into bed (at 9pm)!

I love my kids…my oldest looks (down) into my eyes and I see my reflection in his face- how is that possible?? My genes are pouring out of his blue eyes and dimple and my heart catches! My youngest started baseball today and when asked what position would he “really like to learn” he answers with “pitcher (but only a little)…and says teamwork to him is when everyone all works together because “as they say there is no I in TEAM”- where does he get that? And his sweet little braces…ugh, I am dying from his cuteness! I can’t help but kiss his precious face!

That is real.

I am a work in progress and He is not finished working in me yet!