So…my husband is gone on business during the last week of school for the kiddos. Our oldest is “graduating” from Middle school and turning into a High School freshman on Friday-ugh. Our youngest has his FINAL Field Day on Friday and will be officially a 7th grader after…sheesh.

It is a busy, busy week that has followed other busy weeks leading up to this busy week!!

And, of course, my youngest gets sick with a nasty virus that is going around. Fevers, coughs, runny vs stuffy nose = cranky.

One may say that this could have quite possibly made THIS MOM a little cranky….

I tweeted a quote the other day that I had found in my Bible study notes about Gideon- yes, I am still reading the book of Judges! The quote said “if we’re always looking around for God’s next assignment, we run the risk of ruining whatever we’re doing right now” (NLT Life Application Study Bible 1996 pg 289).

Why is it that when life seems its busiest, we feel we should be doing more than what we are currently doing??? Am I the only one who feels this way??

Here I am, “single parenting” for the week, and my kid is home sick from school, what do I worry about? How can I get a Bible Study going, when can we find time to mentor a young married couple, how do I start an evening worship service, when will I get to see Wonder Woman?

I am trying to determine what should I be doing next instead of looking at what I should be doing now.

Ouch.

It appears that I am actually trying to make myself busier….when all I keep complaining about is how busy I am.

Exactly what is the definition of INSANITY???

 

Hmmph.

The thing is, I WANT to serve the Lord with all I am and with all He gave me! I WANT to use all these ideas that keep popping into my head to please Him!

I think the problem is….I want to do all that He wants me to do right now….I want to write a book, preach a 1,000 sermons, help start a revival among teens, ease the hurting of the broken hearted, offer hope to the hopeless.

AND

I want to raise my sons to be God-fearing men who will serve the Lord with their lives and careers, to be a great wife to my husband and an attentive daughter to our parents while being a good homemaker, nurse, and student.

Anyone see the problem???

It seems to consist mainly of what I WANT and WHEN I WANT IT.

However, in the instant of a crisis, what is really important suddenly surfaces. In a the presence of a fever, what really matters becomes clear- and it sure isn’t work obligations.

What I realized, that although it is wise to think of the future, it is important to stay in the NOW.

I need to remember that every time I thought I would NEVER be able to “do it all” or “get it all done“, the Lord has provided the time and resources to get things done in a timely fashion. When I have taken the time to look upon today only, and offered today up to the Lord, He has blessed it and my time.

In a fevered child I saw my present. Taking care of him became the priority as was also using that time with him wisely (I made 8 loaves -yes 8!- of banana bread in that unexpected day off from work while he rested).

Today, it was to be present at an out of town Open House for an old friend’s child.  Yesterday, it was to be present with my family of 4 after my husband had been out of town. Tomorrow is reserved for the Lord entirely and I plan to be present with Him with limited distraction while my hubby and kids are gone from the house having a blast at Cedar Point.

So -what does God want me to do?

                       Lead a Bible Study? Probably, but not today. He will let me know when.

                        Preach? Write? Most likely, but not yet. He will provide the opportunity.

                       Go to Bible College? Absolutely, but not this summer.

                        Begin an evening worship service or resume a Bible Study? Maybe but not until a month or so from  now. He will help me work out the details and, in His timing, will bring people to assist me.

                          Parent my boys to the best of my God-given ability? Yes, EVERY DAY with His help. No discussion to be had about it!

I have realized that worrying about what I should be doing tomorrow is robbing the joy of living in today.

I do not think God has given me (or anyone else) ideas of how to serve Him in an effort to keep me  so busy I cannot see the straight path set in front of me. Instead, what I need to do is trust my future to Him and  trust in His timing while living for Him today.