If my weakness is that I am a people pleaser then my natural tendency will be to try to manage what makes me feel weak on my own..I will try to be strong where I feel weak SO I don’t feel weak.

Goodness..does that thought even make sense??

I am trying to work something through so please hang with me…

His grace is sufficient IN MY WEAKNESS- that’s what the Word says. It is where I feel weak that I need to lean into God FOR His strength to shine.

When I keep trying to figure out what to do, how to do it, when to do it- I am not exactly leaning into God’s strength- that is me micro-managing (searching for my own strength where I feel weak).

And I wonder why I am in turmoil.

So…what is LEANING INTO GOD’S STRENGTH?

What does His sufficient grace look like in my weakness?

It must be the opposite of what I am doing, right? Because what I’m doing is NOT working.

If I am trying to figure out what to do all the time and when to correct whatever is supposedly wrong then maybe I need to stop doing that.

If that causes my anxiety to rise..that’s where I cast my cares and be anxious about nothing.

-Let the Word empower me,huh?-

When I am spinning on a hamster wheel wanting someone to explain to me why they don’t like me anymore- just so I can correct whatever it is I have supposedly done so they do like me??- I need to check my heart…I need to pray for any thing unclean IN ME to be removed…and leave that supposed wrong to the Lord until that person seeks me out in search of either furthered conflict or reconciliation.

Not every time did I DO SOMETHING wrong…it can be perception of my choices that someone feels is wrong…It does not mean I AM BAD or WRONG..

And do I really need people who don’t agree with me to agree with me all the time?

Do I really need people who don’t want to ask me questions, don’t want to see my perspective, don’t want to trust my heart’s choices, and who do want to be angry at me or blame me to suddenly stand up and say “oh, gee Amy…I now understand and support you”??

Is that what I need?

That sounds crazy.

No wonder my husband- precious man- looks at me like I am nuts when I keep trying to maneuver around so people will like me.

If someone feels I have wronged them, is it my job to correct that thought? Or is it up to them to seek reconciliation with me since it is their perception that I have wronged them with malicious intent?

The people pleaser says it is my job..but is it??

I am to be a GOD PLEASER…have I pleased the Lord in my circumstance? I believe I have.

And if they too feel they have as well..then it is up to the Lord to judge us both, right?

Leave it at His feet Amy.

The opposite of what I normally do…don’t act- be patient and pray. Don’t fix- pray and be patient. Don’t worry- pray and be patient.

Goodness. I sense a theme.

2 things I am not doing..praying and being patient.

Hmmm.

I may be onto something.