I am trying something different…it is called disciplined writing -my personal term! That means I am trying to commit to writing because it writing is what I want to do whether I feel like doing it or not. Therefore, I am trying to be more disciplined. Get it? Pretty thrilling stuff, I know.

As a person who, at times, has been known to “quit when the going gets tough this discipline is a pretty big deal. I am not suggesting the desire to quit- instead it is quite the opposite!

I want to write more. I want to be heard.
For that to happen- my best bet is to write.

Needless to say, I am already challenged in this new discipline: my ancient laptop is not a fan of WordPress so I am limited to the use of my phone until a new purchase has been made…But rain or shine, big keyboard or thumb use only, I shall prevail!

Over the last year or so, I have been listening to podcasts while I get ready for work alternated with music. I brought a notebook into the bathroom to leave by my sink so I can write quotes or lyrics that I have found inspiring.

This notepad has quite a few things written in it now so I thought it could be a good place to start for topic writing ideas instead of my feelings all the time.

Don’t worry…my feelings, analogies, and perspectives always works their way into my writing but you and I both will be surprised to see what shape that takes as I write!

HERE WE GO!

God Shows His Goodness When We Need Mercy

My devotional asked this morning have we ever been in a situation where we said “what is God thinking??”

It furthers this thought by suggesting that when we must deal with a situation that does not make sense, we should search for spiritual understanding. We should ask God to reveal His purpose to us but if we still cannot understand why this is happening we are to trust God through it.

Yikes.

These last few months ALONE I have questioned what on earth are you doing Lord?
I have certainly sought His purposes and found no understanding- that is for sure!

I am really working to trust what I do not understand…

These last few years have been equally as crazy….
But,
I can see the Lord’s hand through it all from where I sit now, but, because I can’t see the other side from here, it still makes no sense: why now? why this way? why this kind of pain? why this kind of suffering? why so much all at once? why him? why her?

And then the big question: WHAT ON EARTH IS COMING NEXT???




Certainly makes me feel like I am screaming for mercy here…

No more.
I can’t take this…
Please release this fear/pain/illness…

Am I making sense?

I need mercy to heal…to breathe…to find purpose…to receive understanding…to accept…to process…

And there it is…the goodness of God…

I want answers…He gives me blessings.

I want this to stop….He gives me people to encourage me through it.

I want no more….He strengthens me to stand firm in faith.

I want out… He gives me hope to carry on…

Have you ever spent time with God and felt Him lavish His love on you?? Like a cup being filled to overflowing…




The goodness of God is in His creation, His people, His faithfulness, His promises…

It is beauty where ashes have been.
It is peace in the storm.
It is hope in despair.
It is forgiveness where there should be condemnation.

God’s gentle teaching hand as He disciplines me is firm yet loving…He molds me and prunes me to become more like Him…shaving off the parts of me that try to drag me back to the place where I was furthest away from Him.

It hurts…but its purpose is good.

God shows His goodness when we need mercy…thank you Lord for that.