I’ve struggled with thinking that life would be so much better if _____ was not happening or in my life.

I imagine others could easily fill in that blank for themselves.

These last two years it has been my Crohn’s disease that fit on that line.

I’ve been frustrated by fatigue, plagued with intermittent and unpredictable pain, scared by the possible adverse effects of the treatment, wrestled with despair that life would never look “normal” again.

I’ve pleaded for the Lord to TAKE THIS from me.

You know what He said?

“My grace is sufficient for you – My loving kindness and mercy are MORE THAN ENOUGH and ALWAYS available regardless of the situation; My power is being PERFECTED AND COMPLETED (and shows itself most EFFECTIVE) in your weakness”

2 Corinthians 12:9

I’ve been forced to make a choice…I can either choose to LIVE with this or WAIT to live and miss out on LIFE.

I don’t understand why I have this disease any more than I can figure out why my friend has Stage 4 cancer…

I’ve chased the “why’s” around the block for miles and never really found an answer…

I can blame it on stress…my diet…the environment…global warming…you name it.

The only thing that matters is that I have it.

This is my reality.

I am sure so many others have afflictions, hurts, habits, addictions, pain that do not make sense.

And, in many situations on this side of heaven there isn’t an “easy fix” for you…

We have to fight every day.

We have to battle every day.

We have to pick ourselves up every day.

We have to shake off yesterday’s failures every day.

We have to choose to press on.

I want to do so with joy.

I want to do so with strength even in my weakness.

I want to do so with hope.

May I be able to say, with every fiber in my being, “I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses so that the power of Christ may completely unfold and dwell in me”.

Thank you for following me. Thank you for sharing with others what I write. Please continue to do so and feel free to correspond with me as well. We can discuss what you’re struggling with and walk this path of honesty together.