I’ve been journaling lately…just for me- especially (thankfully) since not many can read my writing😉

Working through the “I can’t’s”, the “what if’s” , “but I’s”…

Anxiety and worry are not fun bedmates y’all…fear of failure is THEIR friend and NOT mine…but he lingers around in my thoughts too.

I wrote this thought today in a prayer/talk to God in response to those thoughts:

You won’t CAUSE something awful to happen to MAKE me suffer.

I need to put those words on repeat.

Numbers 13:33 is the story of the Israelites about to head into the Promised Land after their exodus from Egypt.

God had done many miracles leading up to this point (remember the parting of the Red Sea?? Just one example folks…)

Moses sent 12 spies to go check out the land of Canaan and they came back saying it was wonderful. It was more than the people could have imagined!

But, there were these people living there…they looked huge…they looked strong and healthy…they did not look like people who had been slaves …they did not look like people who were homeless …they looked comfortable in their land.

10 of the 12 spies said there was no way the Israelites could defeat these giants. In fact, in comparison to these massive people, the Israelites were mere grasshoppers .. insignificant…small.

What good is a grasshopper against a giant?

I have been that grasshopper.

I am struggling with my identity now, in fact, as I look at giants in front of me.

The interesting part of this story, is the other 2 spies…Joshua and Caleb.

They saw the same thing but their perspective was completely different.

How could that be??

Is it possible that the self image of the other 10 spies gave them the appearance of being so small and the Canaanites so big?

Is it all about perspective when measuring ourselves against something that seems hard or impossible??

Joshua and Caleb were realistic of who they were and who the Israelites were….but they also knew who God was.

He had brought them to this point… miraculously…and He told them this land was theirs.

Joshua and Caleb believed that God would be true to His word (because He had been all along) and He would make a way for the impossible to happen (because He already had).

As I trust in the Lord and lean on Him, NOT my own understanding, He will make my path straight. He will not cause something awful to happen to make me suffer.

This is His path…His plan…My job is to go get what He has promised me and believe He will make a way.

And maybe that giant isn’t as big as it seemed…I won’t know until I hop up to it.

Not sure who else needs to say that but I felt it was necessary to share.

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