Psalm 52:9
I will thank You forever because You have done it- You have rescued me and kept me safe!

Two months ago I was terrified when Covid-19 crossed the ocean into the US. As an RN in the hospital, I knew my exposure risk was going to be VERY high. As an immune compromised person, I knew that I was even more susceptible to contract ANY virus~ let alone this “new” Covid-19.

I did not know what to expect and fear began to consume me.

Then, March 25, I was required to be tested for the Coronavirus due to a nagging cough/cold I could not shake. Considering my risk for exposure and my immune suppression, it seemed fairly logical to want to rule this out before I returned to work.

I have not felt so vulnerable to a disease before (and I had just been exposed to active TB the week prior).

On March 26 my Covid test came back NEGATIVE and with that result came a rush of RELIEF. I could safely return to work and resume my life.

In that moment, I determined to quit letting FEAR rule me!

Yes, I take precautions…even somewhat extreme precautions depending on the situation. That, however, does not mean I am living in fear~ it means I am choosing to be WISE given the information we have been given regarding prevention.

It has been a process for me…a mind battle to be certain…but it is one I choose to INTENTIONALLY wage in order to have PEACE in my mind and heart.

Fear ROBS me of peace. It STEALS all joy. It INHIBITS my ability to show kindness to others because I am only concerned for myself. It HINDERS me from being an encouragement to others ~how could I lift the spirits of another when my own are dragging me down?

It took DAILY time with the Lord.
It took FREQUENT discussions of His goodness and mercy.
It took REMEMBERING His faithfulness.

All this was MY choice.

I am NOT a captive to fear! I am no slave to those bonds! I HAVE BEEN SET FREE TO LIVE VICTORIOUSLY THROUGH CHRIST!!!

Since March 26, I continue to work at the hospital and I have continued to be kept SAFE while there.

I believe that is of the Lord…He has drawn me to this place and has shielded me in His grace.

Therefore, I WILL thank Him forever!